Loopy Lupron

Well, as the title indicates I have now entered the realm of Lupron induced craziness. Yesterday I had terrible mood swings. I was so emotional and just feeling awful. I haven't been sleeping well and I think that, in addition to all of the stress lately, PMS, and the Lupron made for one emotional and just downright insane woman last night. God bless my sweet Dh who just rubbed my feet and tried to get me to take a nap. I really don't know how I would get through this without him. I am feeling much better today but although I took a sleeping pill before bed last night I still don't feel like I slept well. I am also feeling a bit overwhelmed by the comments of people in our lives about the death of Dh's grandfather and "new life." You know the ones, when someone dies everyone says that maybe a new life will come soon. I want to believe that, I honestly do. I want to believe that "Pop" is going to go up there and tell God that we are ready for our miracle baby. I'm not saying it is not going to happen, but it could also not happen too.

Anyway, lets get to the real reason you are here reading this entry. I had my Lupron evaluation this morning. It is basically to make sure that the Lupron has done its job and suppressed my ovaries (ie. no big cysts.) My lining is thin, I think she said it was at a 6, and my ovaries are nice and suppressed. In fact, they almost didn't look polycystic at all today. I could hardly see the antral follicles they were so small. So lets hope I am not over suppressed! So, as long as my E2 is nice and low I will start my stims tonight. I will be doing 150 units of Follistim and 75 units of menopur every night and I will be dropping my Lupron down to 5 units starting tomorrow morning. So Dh will get to stick me 3 times which he is thrilled about. So, I have met my first goal for this cycle which was to pass my suppression check. My next goal is to notice some sort of follicle growth on my next u/s which is on Friday morning. Wish me luck!