Lurpon Eval 3.0

I want to apologize for not posting this morning and also for this being a somewhat short post. I have been really sick this weekend! I have had diarrhea since Wednesday evening. On Friday I had a fever of 102. We decided to go to Gettysburg anyway so that we didn't waste our money. I spent the whole weekend being sick and we didn't leave the hotel room. On Saturday night I started throwing up also. So we left and came home early Sunday morning and headed to my doctor's office. They wanted to give me an IV with some fluids since I was so dehydrated and couldn't even keep water down. They were able to start an IV right in the doctor's office (who knew?) It took three people one hour to find a vein and some horribly painful sticking. I spent about 5 hours total at the doctors office. Basically I have a stomach virus and I also learned that I have a UTI. I didn't notice that I had the UTI due to all of the other issues with my stomach. I was still throwing up this morning so I stayed home from work and Dh stayed home to take care of me. I did go to my Lupron eval 3.0 today. It hurt so bad when they put the wand in because of the UTI. Everything still looked good and I got a call from my nurse not too long ago saying that my e2 finally dropped. She is supposed to call me back shortly with a final confirmation that everything is okay to begin (I think because they can only have so many people starting stims on the same day.) I think I puked out all of my e2! So, that's it for me now, I am so tired. I will update when I get the call from my nurse.

P.S. Thank all of you for letting me wallow in my self pity. Every now and then we all need some time to feel sorry for ourselves and that was my time. I appreciate all of the warm words and prayers. You ladies are the best!

**Updated** I got the official okay to start my stims tonight! We finally get to start! I am so relieved that we finally got past the suppression phase. Lets hope my ovaries respond well to the stims. I will be doing 150 units of Follistim and 75 units of Menopur starting tonight and tomorrow morning I drop the Lupron down to 5 units. I go on Thursday for my first u/s. Hopefully by then the UTI pain will be gone!

Lupron Eval 2.0

I had my second (and hopefully last) Lupron evaluation today. All looks good, my lining is at a 5.8 now (it was 7.2 on cd3) so hopefully this means my e2 has dropped. We wont really know anything until we get the bloodwork results though. I had a sonographer that I have never met before today and I didn’t like her very much. She didn’t even turn the screen so I could see it so I sat up to look until she got the hint. I am dealing with a stomach virus of sorts and have had terrible diarrhea for 2 days now (sorry TMI.) I can’t eat anything without immediately having to go to the bathroom. I didn’t sleep well at all last night and had to get up three times to use the bathroom. I just feel awful and I cant seem to shake it. I still have some pain in the left side of my abdomen which I assuming is being caused by this virus. It sucks because we leave tonight for our weekend getaway and I don’t want to be sick during it. But, they will charge us if we cancel and I have been looking forward to this for a long time so no matter what I am going. So, now we wait for a call from my nurse to see whether we can actually start stims tonight. I will update when I hear.

Crap

Well, because my body refuses to do anything "by the book" it has decided that it is not quite ready for stims. My nurse just called and said that my E2 was at 78 and it needs to be below 50 to start the stims. So I have to continue the 20 units of Lupron and go back on Friday for them to retest. I have no idea what this means and I will be consulting Dr. Google as soon as I am done this post. So, lets hope that my E2 drops to where it should be on Friday. Man I hate my stupid body! The one good thing in all of this is that we wont have to come into the clinic during our weekend away...oh joy...

Loopy Lupron

Well, as the title indicates I have now entered the realm of Lupron induced craziness. Yesterday I had terrible mood swings. I was so emotional and just feeling awful. I haven't been sleeping well and I think that, in addition to all of the stress lately, PMS, and the Lupron made for one emotional and just downright insane woman last night. God bless my sweet Dh who just rubbed my feet and tried to get me to take a nap. I really don't know how I would get through this without him. I am feeling much better today but although I took a sleeping pill before bed last night I still don't feel like I slept well. I am also feeling a bit overwhelmed by the comments of people in our lives about the death of Dh's grandfather and "new life." You know the ones, when someone dies everyone says that maybe a new life will come soon. I want to believe that, I honestly do. I want to believe that "Pop" is going to go up there and tell God that we are ready for our miracle baby. I'm not saying it is not going to happen, but it could also not happen too.

Anyway, lets get to the real reason you are here reading this entry. I had my Lupron evaluation this morning. It is basically to make sure that the Lupron has done its job and suppressed my ovaries (ie. no big cysts.) My lining is thin, I think she said it was at a 6, and my ovaries are nice and suppressed. In fact, they almost didn't look polycystic at all today. I could hardly see the antral follicles they were so small. So lets hope I am not over suppressed! So, as long as my E2 is nice and low I will start my stims tonight. I will be doing 150 units of Follistim and 75 units of menopur every night and I will be dropping my Lupron down to 5 units starting tomorrow morning. So Dh will get to stick me 3 times which he is thrilled about. So, I have met my first goal for this cycle which was to pass my suppression check. My next goal is to notice some sort of follicle growth on my next u/s which is on Friday morning. Wish me luck!