Benched

Well, my nurse called and as I suspected they are functional cysts therefore I can obviously not do any stims this month. She told me I don’t need to go on BCPs though. I guess since I don’t ovulate they aren’t worried that they will grow? Anyway, in the meantime I asked her if she could go ahead and start the process for the IVF. She said my RE was already writing a letter to my insurance company as we speak. I think he is offended that they are using a “chart” to instead of trusting his medical recommendations. So, if my insurance gives an all clear looks like my next cycle will be an IVF cycle. In the meantime I am going to try to build back up our savings as much as we can. I am actually pretty excited about taking a short break which is odd considering we just came off of a 2+ year break and only did one cycle of treatments. So I am to wait 30 days for af to show up (which she wont because I don’t ever get her on my own) and then if no af I will go back in for an u/s just to make sure that the cysts have gone away. Then we will go from there. So, while I won’t really be blogging about too many things IF related I will try to come up with some things to blog about. So don’t fear I will still be blogging. Thanks for the comments and like I said before, I hope I didn’t scare anyone away with my craziness!

Cysts

Well, I went for my baseline today and I have one 4cm cyst on each ovary. They did some blood work and they will call me and let me know what to do but I am pretty sure that I will be sitting out this month. This explains the awful pain I have been having lately though. I am feeling much better today and more relaxed, which is off considering I may be benched this cycle. I can’t say it was a total shock though because I knew something was going on in there. I asked God last night for a sign that I was making the right decision to do another IUI cycle and this is what I get, so, does that mean he gave me a sign that I did NOT make the right decision? I have to think about it a little more. I have never had cysts this big so it must have something to do with the Follistim. I’m not even sure what they do for cysts to help them clear up. I am really suprised that I am not too bummed out, I mean I just got off of a 2 year break from ttc but for some reason another small break doesn't sound so bad. I have noticed a drop in the number of comments on my posts so I am hoping that my craziness hasn’t scared everyone away!